Tuesday, 28 March 2017
Henibean is 2 years old today!
I know I've not been as diligent at writing over the last month... it's been a difficult time... and I haven't felt much like sitting and tapping out my thoughts on the keyboard ....but hey this blog is about balance ... and you have to cut yourself some slack sometimes don't you?
A lot has happened in the last two year and today I wanted to mark the occasion by at least writing something and taking some time to look back over all the post that have been put up here. As I look back, I am reminded of some of the fun adventures that we have had with Heni (here, here) .... and some of the fun respite trips we have taken as a family without her (here, here)... also, the walking with wheelchair post (here, here) and Eating out with food intolerance posts (here, here). Here are a few of the many "Sanity Space projects" that I have undertaken (here, here, here, here)... some of the "Books I've reviewed" (here, here) ...the "Rants" I've had (here, here) and some of the "Health" related blog posts I've written (here, here, here) .
There are Far too many to list, but I hope that you will go check some of them out via the links, or go visit the side bar and browse around and have a read.
When I started the blog two years ago it was with three intentions....
....it was to be a creative outlet for myself...
....a family history/journal for my kids to read one day...
....and it was also a tool to share some of our life, trials and lessons learned with other Trisomy families who hopefully may have been able to benefit from some of the things we have experienced with Heni.
Now that Heni is no longer with us I have been wondering what direction to take with the blog?
I guess the first two intensions remain the same, and to some degree our journey through grief may be helpful to some out there....
But...in this next year you may find that I write a few more health related topics and book reviews and who knows what else may appear? I hope you will stick with me and find out how things develop. I am in no hurry. I have accepted that grief is a journey and some days I may feel OK and want to write while other days I don't.
I would however love to get some guest posts on here though... after all the theme of the blog is "Learning how to live amid challenges and maintain health, sanity, creativity and balance"... and I know that there are a lot of people out there (in addition to me) who are going through challenges!
If you feel like you would like to write a post about your challenges and what you are learning and how you are striving for balance, OR if you have an expertise in physical, emotional and spiritual health, creativity, and life balance.... and think that you could be of benefit to Henibean's readers, please feel free to get in touch with me (message me on Henibean's face book page).
In the next few weeks we are heading up to the Lake district again (our yearly trip) and are going back to where we stayed with Heni last year.
My son and daughter in law are flying in and some of Heni's carers who have holidayed with us for years are also coming along. We are going to be putting a memorial bench in situ and will also be taking our yearly family pictures. It will be a trip filled with mixed emotions... but I hope that more than anything it will be filled with love, laughter and fond memories of all our time spent with each other and with Heni. Which reminds me ....no birthday would be complete without a rendition of happy birthday.....so here is one from big bro T to Heni last year on holiday for her 21st!
Keep a look out for up coming posts of our trip....and please forgive me for being sporadic as I work my way through all the ups and downs of the grief journey.
Hope to see you all real soon!
Saturday, 18 February 2017
My Craft room/office has been upstairs for a few years now...
I was happy there and had no reason to be anywhere else. I loved the vantage point and the view over the garden it provided me with and enjoyed the peace and quiet ... a "Sanity Space" to write and create. But things have changed... as they always do.
Since Heni died, I have had the difficult task of walking numerous times daily by her room and seeing everything left as it was... shelves teaming full of " friends" that she loved....
Sunday, 5 February 2017
Last post I mentioned that I would share a tool with you that I've been using on my journey through grief... and so today I am going to tell you a little about my experience with Headspace.
I originally came across the app about a year ago after reading a number of books on Mindfulness. I downloaded the app on my phone, and then did the free mindfulness based meditation sessions on the basic ten day program ...TAKE 10 (ten sessions of just ten minutes a day).
Saturday, 21 January 2017
I know a lot of people who are grieving for loved ones right now... and I'm sure that there are even more of you out there who are dealing with it too. It is a life passage that most of us face at some point.... and thereafter on more numerous occasions as we age and see loved ones pass on. It's an experience that is similar.. but also very different for each person, however, there are a few common things that may help "everyone" while passing through the hurt and healing.
Saturday, 7 January 2017
I wasn't really looking forward to Christmas this year... but I did my best on the run up to the big day to prepare for the rest of the family so that we could all hopefully have a nice relaxing and somewhat "fun" time together...However, It's been difficult to get into the jolly mindset when most of the time all I feel is a sense of grief.
I haven't felt much like writing over this period either....mostly I've just wanted to hide away, be quiet and contemplate... but I did try to spend time with my lovely family ...
Thursday, 22 December 2016
I've just finished looking through a mountain of photographs of Christmas over the years..... and have been re-living a life time of fun moments that we have shared together as a family with Heni. I am so grateful to have all of these memories.
This Christmas it's going to be different without her.... and we will be making new and different memories... and in that "different" kind of Christmas celebration I am looking for ways to honour and to remember her in our family festivities this year.
One of the things I want to do, is for everyone to write a letter to Heni to put in her stocking...it's still hanging above the fire place...just like usual....
In years ahead it will become a family history treasure to look back on and read about the things that we have done during the years. It will be a blessing to read of ways in which we have noticed Heni's influence and legacy in our lives.
Sunday, 27 November 2016
This week we enjoyed a family day out to Waddesdon Manor.... a local National Trust property near where we live. We've visited it every year for a number of years now and look forward to it as part of our Christmas traditions and a way of getting us in to the festive spirit. We enjoy going to see the house, trees, lights and doing some Christmas shopping at the wooden cabin "market" set in the grounds around the Manor.